You supposed guru, it's just a joke
You talk of knowing but the reality is you're blind

I'm stronger than you'll ever be, with your I'm so great and your woe is me
I'm braver than you'll ever be, with your refusal to love and your great arms length

I love without limits, while you don't even know how 
You purport yourself to be this great and gentle creature 
But what's really underneath is nothing short of treason 
All I wanted was to believe in your greatness 
But you just kept proving you wrong

You spout your stolen profound words that cannot penetrate your shallow mind
Your manipulations build to immeasurable heights
And your fallacious grandeur crumbles when how you truly are comes to light

With your specious arguments that hold no weight you try to reconcile your odious behavior
You boast of brilliance while you leave everyone behind
You cling to delusional ideals while you brand yourself a master 
With your pomp and attitude, tossing everyone aside

The universe cringes when you speak of unlocking its secrets 
The stars you claim to know, shine down and laugh at you so
The wonders of the world won't bow to a sophist
There is no divinity in you, all you know is how to be cruel

You never understood that an investment in love was an investment in life
And my investment in you was so ill placed, everything I lost is much too great 

You're befuddled and disinterested, you mask your confusion
Your megalomania the key to keeping you afloat 
In your narcissistic pond where you think you walk on water

I will no longer see myself through your eyes, your version of me so askew
I let you do all and make me, that was my own tragic mistake 
But you're betrayal will not define me no matter how hard you tried to keep me down

The truth is I'm the phoenix and you're just the ash
You'll always be trapped in your self imposed cage
While I'm out there flying free
Manic Pixie Dream Girl

girlish and pining
endlessly trying and trying
eccentric in the ways I've made myself
makeup and dress up
never seeming to tire

I've wanted to be a sentient ray of sunshine
the one you think of and smile
I've wanted to make your world a better place to be in
and pull you out of your mire

I sit and think of all the things I want to say to you
on a cloud, so confused, building up my own fate
there's only one person who's done this to me
only one pair of hands I can blame
there's no use hiding behind veiled illusions
I am the one who set the stakes

I convince myself it's what you need
I built up this unattainable fantasy
I believe that this is how you will love me
so this is all I wanted in this world
just to be your manic pixie dream girl
(Some of my poetry and photography - I hope you enjoy)
_ Who We Truly Are

We are not our choices
We are not our decisions
We are not our flaws
Or our hindrances
These are just the things that make us stronger

We are not our bad habits
We are not our jealousy
We are not our vindictiveness
Or our envy
These are just the things we must learn to rise above

We are not our successes
We are not our appearance
We are not our possessions
Or our net worth
These are just the things that lie around us

We are not our families
We are not our embarrassments
We are not our humiliations
Or our trespasses
These are just the things that make up the past

We must learn to choose the best path
And we must learn to embrace compassion
We must learn to let go of worldly goods
And we must learn to forgive

In our relationships
And in our casual conversations
In our heart felt talks
And in our empathy
In our antipathy
And in our hearts
We find who we truly are


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